Lost

Life has a way of giving us challenges. Most of us have probably had our fair (or unfair) share. I am no exception. My challenges may or may not be worse than yours but they are mine. I do try to put things into perceptive however there are times when I find I must indulge myself in a temporary "pity party". I used to hold everything in but when I got to a point that not only was I not happy I did not even care to be happy. That was scary! I had always been a loving and caring person but then I did not care. I went through the motions of day to day and did what I had to (that I still would not change) but I did not care about my own happiness. It would have been very easy (for some) to hit the bottle and booze it up or to hide under the covers or sleep the days, weeks, months and years away. But somewhere deep inside me I found the strength to realize that I deserved better. I did deserve to be happy. I did not know how this was going to happen but somehow I was going to get myself out of the hole of deep uncaring. I had to find my way back - for my husband, my son, my parents, my family.....but most importantly for me. My way back begun.....